Emptiness sux

I feel so empty. I feel like a zombie. I cant focuse on anything.

This is tragedi. I cant even be happy anymore. My dad says dat. My bro says dat. I stare at nothing almost everytime. I feel so sick. I cant bear with this anymore. It hurts. This is always my biggest problem.

He like someone else.If i was immortal, seriously....i would start to kill. Especially on LGH.mCb. Release stress. . I Miss Him Terribly. Cant anyone see my problem??.Luckily gurlz dont grow beards or I would oredi have one. I love him. LOVE HIM.

More then anyone i've loved before. More than how much most people love their own partner! I need a therapist. HELLO??? I nid a doctor. I'm love sick. Shit. I need to go live again!

I cant do this

I cant do this anymore!!! I seriously think i cant. Maybe its because i c him everyday and cant ignore the fact that hes juz amazing. AmaZiNg!

I miss him. very very much. I would do anything for him-no nuding included. I juz want to c his eyes staring back at mine and his warmth. I miss him badly and terribly. I dont even Noe if i could keep this up. I dont know what hes thinking about, I dont know watz hes feeling, I dont know if hes happy or watever crap. I juz want to be there for him. Doesnt he realise dat.

Theres always sumone who actually cares for you out there. When the world is at its darkess point, that person is ready to share the company and comfort needed. And i feel that way for him. I LOVE HIM! I dont care wat the heck people say i dont bloody care! Everyone deserves a chance. Not just second chances but commitment to wat they are doing. I miz him enough to fill and entire ocean with this feeling.

X-zam

I flunk it. I flunk it. I flunk it. I flunk it. I flunk it. I flunk it. I flunk it. I flunk it. I flunk it.I flunk it

I blew it. Big time. Exam results are so depressing. Its killing me softly. I havent got any A's yet. How could i be so terrible??!! I dont like this at all. At all. I need a miracle. I will be expended from everything. I would be grounded from my books, my phone, going out, lepaking, even tv and any other communicating electronics!! Damn it!! Parents hu are over protective always piss they're kids up. Argghh!!!! my freaking BI!! stupid. I hate this. I told you my luck is lessening.

Could this be rili happening. Wat will happen next?? Find out when Abby gets over her Physcology Depression and her two over-protective parents.

Maybe

Probably, destiny, faith, hope, trust, adored etc. Are total crap. Its crap for me alrite. When i am juz so close to doing something and making it happen....verything just totally flunk!!

VeRy PrePOstEroUs!

Maybe my life is just getting miserable day by day. This is total bullshit. I cant even imagine how hard izit to go through life like this. No luck from anywhere!! I could use a little bit of luck now..or somehow...

I might be called desperate coz i dont freaking know what to do!

Stuff

Honestly i never got the time to be online. You know...parents. But, i did manage to go to the beach. Lol... we went on erm....monday and came back on wednesday. Haiz... When we reached there...i immidiately freaked becoz the hotel room was terribly small. The air-corn was horrible! Gosh....But the trip to the beach bought me out. I felt better. The beach was beautiful around sunset.....silver linings everywhere. Also....eyes everywhere. Lol. Went to eat the at the best seafood restaraunt in-the-world!!! Just got up 3 kg's becoz i ate none stop. Hu could resist the taste of beautiful seafood???........

Oh shit!! i cant believe the guy at my tuition centre hu obviously like me but wont say it.. cut his hair. Okay..almost skinhead but better then skinhead. He looks gorgeous. Bet, the gurlz go crazy....Lol...went to buy my brothers game pack after tuition. Apu.....so teruk lah that budak. Instead of getting a gud and awesome game, he chose the lame and boring one. Hadoh.... I dont understand kids nowadays. There was this guy at wisma.

Rite after i went down the escalator he pulled me to the side and ask for my number. Gawd! Hes hott! Luckily my dad wasnt there. Or the guy wil be toast..I couldnt say anything. Shit. So preposterous. He has a brown long frinch and perfect cutting of hair. He has gud english to0. He was the person hu gives out papers to advertise stuff after you come down the escalator. Probably coz i was alone...I juz stood there wid everyone looking. And said bye. Then chaw. Phobia liaw. Dat never ever happened. I think hes so desperate. Lol... I think he was finding for me coz he wasnt there when i peep out the lift. Or followed me. Ee-cek.

I think i finally just want to be hes fren. The guy hu ignores me is still ignoring me...I dont get hes problem. Why cant he accepts cool??? We were cool b4...Maybe he has physcological problem. lol. I feel so lazy to buy kredit. Wats the use. The only ppl mssgng me are twirps. Why cant they find someone else??? Haiz... Just my luck to run into him.

Haiyaa steph. I know lah you got all the free time in the world to update ure blog. There ^ You happy now??