Feelings

I just totally cant stand this feelings anymore. Its killing me! Tearing me apart. Pulling and ripping me off.. I want to get so far away from its source i rather move to another country. This is so pathetic! I cant stand it anymore! Lucky for some ppl they can move on. I just cant do that now. Its too deep. Arggh. I'm so alone. But doesnt mean i need anyone here. I can do this. I'll just move skul. I dont have to see his face or anyones face that just brings me enough bad luck. I'll start over. Snd no way have another guy in my life again.

peace!

Ewwness :P

Okay. Mucus.

Mucus. Is disgusting. eSPECIALLY SOMEONES ONE. It shoots out like a pistol bullet!
Piuunnnnnnnnng poof! One the table. Eww... And when someone has flu rite..they blow or suck back their mucus into their nose. Dat is totally preposterous. It makes dat funny sound dat someone is about to die sound. Its green and yellow and white and all weird yucky colors. The worse thing is if Someone coughs and mucus suddenly comes out of thier mouth and lands somewhere on the floor or table or wherever is also terrible. I've seen ppl like dis. Eww!! eww!!

Okay. Boogers.

Boogers. Its also disgusting. Why some ppl dunno how to dig out their booger?? haiz.. Then. Some ppl know how to dig it but instead of throwing it away...they eat it and the worse part is. Swallow it. Eww...I've seen ppl do this too. It is so pathetic for someone to do dat. Especially for a prefect in claz. Haiz....budak-budak zaman s'karang. They even throw boogers to ppl's hair! eww!

Peace!

Stooges song!! :)

Boom. Ch'ka.
Boom. Ch'ka.
Boom. Ch'ka.
Boom.

First, Esha going crazy,
Then, Abby going crazy,
Now, Steph is going crazy,
The Stooges going crazy.

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na

The Stooges going crazy.
Boom. Boom.

We follow the beat- Krazy.

Lol.

Love

Theres no failing to see at least one page concerning peoples problems about their love life. Its something that they experience and try to move on but they cant..Some people juz dont understand why we gurlz are mostly like dis. Especially the opposite sex. I'm going to do the most beserk thing dat I have ever done in my entire life.

On the nite dat i marked, All my feelings will be poured out. Either his ears are open or not. At least i tried. I feel so traped i can explode into one million peaces! Dat is the first time anione can make me pour out. No one can do dat to me. I'm going to put one big mark of guilt on his forehead. HMPF!

Why must teenagers get into this kind of crap?? Why ppl dont understand it?? Why some would commit suicide?? Why some would cry non stop 24 hours a day?? Be emo in one corner and feel like they are about tooooooooo die???.

Becoz....Some people really mean it. ITs pure..its real. Its not stupid puppy love or monkey love or what so ever CRAP. Other people dont see dat becoz they are not (them).

If the person i rili love now, comes back wid his face burned or his legs gone, I WILL STILL LOVE HIM. His appearence doesnt bloody matter to me. People can fucking say what they want to but his always mine. NO ONE CAN REPLACE HIM..And i'm serious. I love him. And i do regret i met him. This all so preposterous..

Deeply and forever.

I love this song :)

Shadows fill an empty heart

As love is fading,

From all the things that we are

But are not saying.

Can we see beyond the scars

And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.

And open up to

The ways you made me feel alive,

The ways I loved you.

For all the things that never died,

To make it through the night,

Love will find you.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes

To start a new day.

This broken heart can still survive

With a touch of your grace.

Shadows fade into the light.

I am by your side,

Where love will find you.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love had never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?Now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far,

Just hold on.

There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life, I am yours.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love had never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love had never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

Baby, before it's too late,

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

Its by Chris Daughtry- What about now..

A Thursday

Abby : Steph, I dont want go to school lah....i got stomach ache...

Steph: Eeee...nevermindlah...just go to skul!

Abby : I dont want!!

Steph: Dont want i go lah..you stay here

Abby : You funnylah...you got head ache bah...no nid to go skul lah...

Steph: We have to go to skul..later ppl macam-macam...

I just agreed to go becoz i cannot do anything anymore bah...I will be
alone...And yes i still had my stomach ache. Then we got ready and waited for
auntie Yen. And just becoz she asked me to got to skul, my stomach got worsed and i pooped like for 8 times. We went back of corz. Yea both of us. lol. Sisters!!

Peace!

I dont know

What should i do??

I think i still like him. I'm in a place where i think i have two feelings.Maybe i still like him maybe i still love him maybe i still hate him or maybe i just crush. Its so hard to avoid his view! Even how hard i try..i cant do it. It doesnt work. Not at all.

Maybe its becoz i didnt try harder. But come tot hink of it...i try quite hard. Really hard. Super hard. But i'm not getting better or worse just average. Haiz... ER09 is coming...Memories flying everywhere! So...ish.I dunno lah wat to do anymore.

Maybe hes with someone else...wonder hu. I mean he cant stay single forever. But i can. No ONE can replace him. Not even (England). Hmm..I think i will do dat dare steph. Maybe. Maybe not. But if i cant stand it i will. :)

He calms my soul everytime i look at him.

Peace!

Stooge

Kawad, kawad, kawad. One kawad after another. And wat happened?? Stooge got disattached from us. Now we have like stupidest and stupider only. So boring...But steph says we have less persaingan antarabangsa. Lolz its kinda true. Stupider and stupidest would be stupid!! Then smart! lolz. I'm so evil. hehe...Me miss the stooge...(says steph). No more talkative person. No more 4 eyes. No more camel. lolz. Shes going away for 1 week.....And less prefect in skul too....dunno howlah. :)

Sleep is annoying

Every morning and i mean every morning..becoz i stay with steph, i think i have her hibernating disorder. Its like, after we wake up..we fall back to sleep again. Its like a disease you know..! I think its cause by her tortoise. Curses. Then either she'll mumble something or i'll do it. She mumbles lotz of stuff. Sometimes. No never. Nthg. Oh ya. Dat gurl off my alarm. If she didnt do dat..i think i WOULD HAVE WOKEN UP. And then we get up. No when we wake up, Steph would be having one in a million reasons to not get up.(of bed) Its so totally annoying. I got so used to waking up late..i just didnt bother of waking up anymore. We are like hippopotamuses. Oh..erm..our homework is like totally ignored by us. We just wake up and then blah. lolz She mumbles about her er-hum too.. Her so called KERORO, lolz she bebels like....you know lah. Gurlz..hehe =)

An english teacher

Ckg. ..... is very grudgeful dont you think?? She goes to claz...still grudging about wat we did. Hiaz...she bebels about it lyk forever! luckily she has something on. I dont know wat but i hope she keeps having it like crap. Then at least some of us have some peace. She says move on...but she herself cant move on. So teruk. I dunno how lah..if she balik still bebeling about this. I think she needs to move skul.

I think

I think i'm crushing on someone....not seriously just mentally. Hes so nice and sweet but stupid in academic. But i know he will someday be succesful. I dont wan to tell him my feelings yet coz i'm scared i will ruin our friendship. I see him everytime at 5. And my stress goes away. Only Steph knows about it. If she tells anyone i'm steaming her. Now shes fast asleep so watever. Maybe i should tell him. Hes 14 too........but i just dont know yet........Esha says hes fine just stpd yea watever. But i dont think i will tell him coz i dont wan it to be serious. I dont wan any boys coz i still love someone. And i love him very much to be wid someone else. So far so good trying to forget about him. yea.

peace!

Stupid teacher

Firstly. I'm going to talk about ugly hunchback (Our Bm teacher) . He is totally Stupidedelocodepelay. I hate dat male bitch. That sucker! hE thinks hes so greaaat. Yea rite. I wuld be the happiest person on earth if he moved. He so perasan! Urgh! i benci benci dat sucker! I want to take the tiang gol and sweep him wid it. He is so rude. Rudest person ever!

Then its our stupid claz teacher. Penyibuk babi hutan that woman! I hate her. Evryone hates her. Yea. She goes like interupt ure buisness and look at u lyk shes going to die soon. Small thing oso she wan to marah. So penyibuk. Gago bitch! Fuck. I want her out of this skul. OUT!! i dont understand how ppl tahan with her attitude. its like shit!

3rd. Its our koperasi teacher.. Its ckg. sesi pagi. That woman hu thinks shes all beautiful and so bitchy. Yea rite! ugly pathetic Biatch! I want to eat her alive. She col us at rehat and bebel at us when we have to go to duty. Say she wan us to kerja for one whole week bcoz we didnt come for the other two weeks Eh, pegi mampus lah! Then she say letak jawatan becoz we cannot go.(we dont have transport bah) She think we so sad. Yalah pig! We were like the happiest ppl in the world. Me and steph. We mess up the kop. and she didnt get anything. So we win!

Lastly. The laziest slug in our skul. "Oh...Saya saja boleh cantik dalam skolah ini! oRG LAIN TIDAK BOLEH CANTIK. saya saja." Bodoh. I think ckg. Manisah is more beautiful then her. ASSHOLE. Asa kacak! She is so useless in the skul. So called head. Lazy, pathetic, bitch! I would panggang her. Steam her. Cook her. Punch her. Slap her. And other stuff. She twist our words and insult us. I WANT HER OUT OF THE SKUL FOREVER. USELES BITCH!

I know...we are not suppose to curse...but i couldnt take it. Its there for to long oredi. If i dont do something i might accidently punch ppl. You guys find out ureselves hu they are. I have no intention of telling they're names. But wat i know.... they shouldnt be teachers becoz they have no heart of understanding they're students. ASSHOLE. But...penolong kanan is still da best!

Peace!

Dreams.... =(

Okay...i have been having dreams and nightmares for a while. Yea i know dat everyone has dreams but mine just seem very weird.....

Last week i dreamt dat my mum would tell me something and yes...she did. I keep on having dreams dat actually tell me what will happen in the future. Sometimes in a scary way, sometimes random, sometimes logic. I'm worried...very worried.

Theres a show...(Merlin) In that show...theres a girl called Morgana..she sees the future with her dreams but normally in nightmares. Yea. Dats me. I'm just afraid dat if one day i dream about something gruesome and it comes true...Its good to have this thingy. It could save lives. But if we dont know how to use it wisely then....it would be bad.

Peace!

For christians

I learn something important all my years of living. I learned dat its no use to hang on to somebody who doesnt love you the way you feel for him. Because you have a life ahead of you and you shouldnt destroy it by wasting time on something so pathetic. God. God is hu you should love and love forever. Because when you die....your b/f or g/f cannot follow you up and hold ure hand when you face the judgement between you and God. You have to do it ureself. Remember dat PARADISE is waiting for u in heaven. The biggest mansion ever. Angels and more heavenly beings will welcome you there.

There...you will spend eternity with the one and only father in heaven. He will be ure guide through ure days now and forever. No suffer, no tears and no worries. Turn to him if u have troubles. He may not give immidiate reactions but...but he WILL help you no matter wat.

Do not take God for granted becoz ure life is in his hands. He loves you and pliz appreciate dat. He died on the cross....his blood flowing none stop. His tears for all of us.He was hit and slashed with weapons worse then a samurai sword. His suffer dat cannot be describe is all for our sins. And how did we repay him back?? We were the ones who should be nailed on that cross!

We do not deserve to call him Father or God. But he...he wants us to. He admits us as his children. He cares for use day and nite 24/7. None stop. We must pray hard and do good while we can becoz i have a feeling dat soon...the world is going to end. God will come again on earth and the gates of hell will be open Please be ever ready for the time is near..

I love you all dearly and i want to see you in heaven becoz i do not desire to see you cry or forever be in a place where torcher is never ending And flames burning with worms crawling on ure rotten flesh..Please. Save ureselves. I dont mine telling this again and again if it would change ure mind.

Peace!

Tuition

Tuition..is the worse place on earth. Especially when you are not used to the funny surrroundings and weird ppl. Like in skul..you have ure frens which understands ure personality and everything. But in tuition..if you dont have any frenz and if ure new..you would be completely alone...like me...i have no friends...and i'm alone and everyone at the tuition centre is so totally...ARROGANT. So very spoil my mood if i were to go to tuition. But i know i'm not alone and god will provide a friend for me.

Becoz where ever you go...you're never alone..the angels of heaven will always stay by ur side even if you were the ugliest person on earth. Or the most hated. Amen.

Peace!

Single

Hmm.....I think having a boyfriend totally sux. No offence but in my opinion...it does. I'm planning to be single for a long time..Totally love free. No more word liars in my life. They said a lot of stuff. Sweet stuff but then i dont think they rili meant it. Maybe at that time they did but then when time past those words started to mean nothing. I think dat love is sweet..Yea its fun. But if it is taken to much..

e.g: You love a boy so much then one day he leaves you just like dat without telling you anything.

But if taken to much..it turns to a deadly poison. Remember ppl...at this teenage stage...you are experiencing puppy love. It dsnt last dat long. Dont let this poison destroy you at this young age okay?? Be strong.

Even thou i say this..but i still love that one boy..i will nvr love anyone else as much as how i loved him. I will wait even if it takes forever.

The stall

Okay...i went to a cucur pisang shop today and then i ask to buy cucur for 1 ringgit....The person was a young teenage boy. Stupid looking. Probably bcoz he disturbs ppl like a stupid person too..He was talking to me the whole time i was waiting. i got so annoyed i stared at him in an unbelievable way.

Ya...he did stop talking. Then after finish frying the pisang...he wanted to put it in the plastic bag. Tengah he do dat, guess wat. the pisang fell.(1 pisang) I know. WTF rite?? Then he smiled and ketawak. Apu. The most discusting thing was dat the dirty pisang wid black color stuff juz now....he put bak on the tray. Ew! I just said sik guna and went away. Dat is the most ewwest thing evr in my life. I am never going there again. haiz.

Peace!

A Friday

Yay!! finally i get to sleep rili late...But then i got church today. So i juz tell you lah wat happen....today...errmmm.....i got up....at 8:30. went to church then...umm...went home, revision and then sleep. Dats all.... lolz. I dont enjoy going out of the house. So i stayed at home the whole day and decided to update my blog and so i did. I watch passion of christ becoz its a good friday. And yes i cried.....dats all.

Peace!

It actually hurts...

Some ppl dont know what they are doing to other ppls feelings... They think that they are the best but do they know dat they are as the same as the first person was??

Not everyone in this world is perfect....Everyone is different....I just think ppl should think twice b4 they speak bcoz words hurt a lot. Everyone has feelings. If someone goes over somebodies limit...then there wont be peace and only hatred in both heartz...

Ppl nowadays dont care about that...they just do wat they think shows the best of them. Like thinking they're beautiful...If someone changes they're hair or appearance a little...that person can be beautiful 2. Its not in the outside that counts...its wats in the inside...

Dont think ure the best....someone else can change that fact. Just know dat everyone can do it to in this world as a team. Thats why God made us frenz. To help. Not to curse and rott 2gether.

Peace!

Stupidity =)

I'm going to tell you about something totally ambarassing:

Person1: Um...you got booger stiking out of ure nose
Person2: Ya. You have nose hair sticking out too.

Wat person 3 said-

Person3: OMG. Rili?

P3 started to rube her nose

Person3: Is it still there??
Person1: Yea. True kan? Person 2??
Person2: Yea its still there..

The both of them got so annoyed with person3 becoz she kept asking the same question over and over again so person2 told her to dig her nose.

Person2: Haiz. Just dig u're nose lah..
Person3: Eww...
Person1: Wat?? dont tell me you never dig ure nose b4
Person3: Ya. I never
Person2: Apu just dig it lah!! Its still there.
Person1: Hurry up lah. Before ppl c.
Person3: I dont want..
Person2: Wat?? Why??
Person3: Its discusting.
Person1: Eee....even we dig our nose. Hurry up!! Use the pinky.
Person2: Ya.
Person3: Dont want
Person2: Wat now??
Person3: I need a tissue.
Person1: For what???
Person3: To dig my nose lah!
Person2: Just use ure finger!!
Person3: Eww....dont wan! so dirty!

Person 1 n 2 were so shock at person 3 because never in they're life have they met someone hu never know how to dig her nose b4 and she needed a tissue to do it. But in the end she did dig her nose. But it wasnt setteled

Right after digging her nose...

Person3: Eww...my fingers are so dirty.

There was a someones water bottle near by: Person 3 said to person 2-

Person3: Quick! Get that water bottle
Person2: Why??
Person3: For me to wash my hands! Hurry up!!!
Person2: What?!! eww....dont! Thats sinning
Person3: Ehh...wateverlah!! just stand guard! Hurry up!!

Person 2 couldnt do anything bcoz person 3 was oredy screaming like crab. So she took the water bottle and person 3 washed her hands.

Person2: Oh my gawd. i sinned... You caused me to sin!!
Person3: *Laughing*
Person1: So teruk lah you guys...

And so it ended there. Just stealing ppls water bottle to wash ure hands are total sins. Haiz....Confesion oh...

Peace!

Home work

Lets c...HOMEWORK...I havent done any since...2 months ago. The end of two months ago. I have escape so many times but then, i would get caught. Especially maths. Both my books empty then teacher ask us to pass up. Mana i wan. Cibeng lah. Evry morning doing someting else. Haiz...Esha so lucky get to escape. She got kawad. All she has to do is say i got kawad. Senang rite?? But she will also kenak for not being responsible. lol. I nid to find time to do it. No nidlah. Wait nid. Juz do for the sake of fleksi. so Stupidedelocodepelay.

Peace!

Choir~

Haiz...i just don't understand why cikgu don wan to do anything about our coir. I think improvement should be made. Its missing something.......if we had that something then we might score dat 'A'.

But....i just hope we could be the best among the best on dat day....

Amen

Peace!

Stuges!

Lol....as it started...i would like to tell you a story. You see, there are three stooges. One is stooge, the other stooger and the last stooges. They have a very bad bad habit. Wanna know what?? okay..slapping each others ass. In public, alone, or anywhere reasonable. Haiz...steph should know about this since she likes TO DO IT 2. lolz

abby

new! :)

I just started this blog..Yea i'm new and its fun...I just found out that i'm actually very very clumsy..damn. Ermm..lets see..yea i saw him so many times. I keep on having that feeling to actually go up and speak to him but then it totally sucks to actually know that that wont work. CRAP.